who i am now....

.............is exactly who i want to be.

when i look in the mirror, unlike some people i do not see perfection.
i think im too thin
i'd really really like an ass
..maybe bigger boobs.
i'd like to be a wonderful dancer,
and i'd like to have a great voice but im tone deaf:-(
i think my eyes are ridiculous,
i'd like not to be too competitive,
i'd love to learn to loosen up a little and have fun
i think i talk too much when im nervous
i cringe when people curse around me, save the f-bombs for emergencies will you?
i hate the fact that most days my happiness depends on my grades.
wish i didnt have a huge commitment phobia
i wish i could be more tolerant
less reserved
i wish i could be more friendly
..but i dont have the time to be
i wish i could like someone for more than 4months
i hate my belly, for a thin person it is big.
saving is a huge problem for me
i dont usually try to make a good first impression unless im interviewing for a spot...
so people who like me are those who decided to turn back and take a second look
im an acquired taste,
im scared of the dark,
my greatest fear is dying and marriage
sometimes i feel like a very heartless person when i hurt people that i could have avoided hurting,
i dont care what you think but i dont think fat is healthy.
i dont think im better than anybody but i know noone is better than me.
am i proud, arrogant or confident?sometimes i dont understand the difference.
i love my laps cos they are the fattest part of my body.
i'd rather eat, sleep and watch movies all day than study but the happiness i get when i see that A can never compare to anything.
i dont always love my dad cos i think he is psycho.
im very hard to understand and guys say im complicated.
people say im hard to figure out but what are you doing trying to figure me out?im right here if you have a question,ask it.
i dont like my lips so much cos sometimes i think they are big.

when i look in the mirror i do not see perfection people.
no, i do not.

i see a very beautiful girl staring back at me with problems and flaws.
if God wanted something perfect i doubt he would have made human beings, we are more entertaining this way.

i may not be the prettiest girl in that party, i may not have the biggest butt around, i may be a horrible dancer and tonedeaf.
but thats exactly what makes me leggy, the fact that i have flaws mixed with beauty, brains and greatness.

i would never change anything about my physical attributes, i may not like them but they are part of my identity.i dont think high self-esteem is claiming that you love everything about you but knowing and accepting the fact that you can never be perfect and loving yourself regardless.

when i look in the mirror i do not see perfection,
i see a pretty girl who loves herself,
flaws and all.

the girl i am now? is exactly who i want to be.

hey people.its been so so so long...im sorry but my classes have been crazy, ive had so many interviews to do and i still have a lot to do before the month runs out, i have tests all the time, quizzes...ill try and keep up with my blog though. i still do blog runs and all. i love reading your blogs and comments.

i saw alice in wonderland in 3-D and it was awesome.i'd def recommend it.

best facebook status: He was a great patriot, a humanitarian, a loyal friend; provided, of course, he really is dead.

best twitter update: #Dear Hi5. kindly stop sending me friend request notifications and reminders. I've moved on. So should you.
2.) when do you stop chasing a woman? when she finally gets tired of running.

i hope you guys have a great weekend.and a great week ahead. i cant wait for spring break to get here.eat well and sleep well.ciao.