Wednesday, January 6, 2010

this is how i love

i'd rather you not call me everyday
please give me some space to miss you.
i'd rather you not text me every single night
i seriously need to sleep early this once.
i'd rather you not expose me or claim me infront of your friends
we are not even dating and i havent said yes to your request.
i'd rather you not try to make me jealous
cos i never get jealous.
i'd rather you not tell me you love me
i dont love you back.
i'd rather not have you talk about the future
im just eighteen.
i'd rather you not buy me gifts
i dont want to feel guilty about not getting you anything
i'd rather you not send me songs
songs make letting you go so hard.
i'd rather you not explain your actions to me
you are not my husband.
i'd rather you just say yes or no to my questions.
i tune out when i get long winded responses.
i'd rather you not ask me my g.p.a like you pay my fees.
i dont have any problems telling anyone that, just dont ask like i must tell you.
i'd rather you not make me feel guilty.
it makes me pull away from you even more.
i'd rather you not insult me to make your hurt less.
i love seeing you hurt, so your insults fall like rain
i'd rather you not call me a bitch.
i already know that i'm one.
i'd rather you not try to fill the silence with words.
i love the silence.
i'd rather you have a good reputation with people
but i seriously dont care about that
i'd rather you not put me on the spot
cos i dont want to be there
i'd rather you not ask me everyday if i like you
insecure guys dont rock my boat
i'd rather you just be yourself
cos thats prolly the 'you' i like
i'd rather you not question my motives
my private matters should remain mine
i'd rather you not think of having sex with me
cos im not having sex anytime soon
i'd rather you try not to be too heartbroken
cos 'us' is never going to happen.
i'd rather you get heartbroken
cos i dont want to be the one getting hurt.
i'd rather remain alone and watch the drama
cos i dont want to become an actress in this game called relationship
i'd rather not remember you in this year
cos i want this year to be all about me.
i'd rather you not cry after reading this
you're prolly thinking how full of myself i am to think that you are going to cry for me.
i'd rather you not hate me
but i understand if you do.
i'd rather you not blame love
cos this is simply the way i love.
my like never grows into love
my love always fades.
my love always dies.
i always kill it.

i love facebook statuses like so much..its real funny what people come up with, it kinda gives you an insight into people's lives.
favourite facebook status of the day:Seems like I always had crushes on chicks I couldn't have and then I ended up fucking with someone I shouldn't have.

i hope you guys are all having a wonderful day. dont diet.


HeavyFeathers said...

I like how you love.

musco said...

let d guy who wants to love have a copy of this,it wld definitely help him understand how u love!

P'sy-A-wana said...

some serious stuvz...some of dem I agree with but some I believe in "take hold lightly let go lightly that is the secret to felicity in love"

Myne Whitman said...

Some of them like "I love the silence" that is so me, but no I do not kill my love.

Well written and that picture...

Smileyfreak said...

I think I love alot like you *maybe* Don't worry,no dieting happening here lol :)

Mwajim Al said...

"My love always fades
My love always dies
I always kill it."
Hummm... okay. It is funny because i used to think this way... but yah life has a way of springing up surprises. Nice :)

Nice Anon said...

this is nice leggy. Now fb status can be funny sometimes but like you said it is an insight into peoples lives.

Suru said...

I like the way this is written... i love fb statuses too

muyiwa said...

this your love rules are unique oo,your man must be specially created ,cos 1% out of we men can get along like this with a lady,have a nice day

Sumptuous said...

I love this and used to love this way too but I think I'm ready for a change.

sweetness said...

lol i totally agree on the gpa thing
and the call
but i love texts
so text me everyday
just dont call everyday
love this too

BBB said...

i totally disagree with everything
i love completely, i dont play games with love i either do or dont......

playng games and having rules are just to much stress then u cant keep up
if i get hurt then i stand up and dust my heart its much tougher than u'll imagine
but then

love the way it was written though
and very constructive picture

JuaNita said...

"i'd rather you just be yourself
cos thats prolly the 'you' i like"
I like this bit, coz thats what counts most. This is really good.

My World said...

Really poetic but on da reality scale,I feel just a few.....

shorty said...

Nicely written,but your man go hear

Fragilelooks said...


Anonymous said...

I like the way you love. You love kinda like me! ;)

Anonymous said...

Leggy, I think most of the ways you love would change when you meet the right guy. You would be itching for calls, text messages and all that.

Good write-up shaa.

24yearOldTeEnAgeR said...

@BeautyGoodone: Wrong.
@Leggy: It takes two, to love.
Feel you all the way though.
Smiley Face

Geebee said...

Brilliant piece, leggy. You should probably put this out on a bigger stage. Love, delicate and fragile as it is still makes the world go round. it remains one great mystery so many have yet to unravel. . . fb statuses are the most absurd lines these days. Peeps just say stuff and more stuff. Imagine a status reading 'kill me or i'll kill me'. How sick!

Anonymous said...

i luv dis leggy.........but babe chill small abeg

Anonymous said...

Oh and I've added the rest of the post so you can check it out. :)

Mz. Eniola said...

i actually like this!.but sum parts disturb me..oh well..u shudnt take things too serious. Being 18 i guess..but then..i u think ull always b like dis?..or rather love lyk dis? happy new year!x

David.фаворит Бога номер-один said...

it's love again...???
hope you are good?

Original Mgbeke said...

Very well written. I love FB status updates too.

Azazel said...

Sorry 4 being late, lol but I just got back 4rm a retreat.. Nice blogpost

Barefeet said...

rite this is a lol moment dunno wat to say....girl dont call it love...this is pure irritation with guys....abeg dont call it love cos if u do then there must be somein wrong with the way i love...ah ah u dey vex...?

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Anonymous said...

Just found your blog out of curiousity after the Myne Whitman contribution (which I loved, by the way) and I have to say you seem to write exactly what I think... From the marriage thing to the post about new year's resolutions... It's slightly freaky... Short of comment stalking all the posts I agree with, I should leave it at that :)

This poem in particular is quite striking. The last two lines were the ones I saw as most powerful... Quite poignant and quite true... I guess if anyone was ever going to be a serial killer, murdering love would be a more humane option... :)

Summer said...

this is deep